It has been six weeks since I held you in my arms for the
first and last time. I
think about the short most precious hours that Daddy and I got to spend with
you often. I think about how beautiful you were and how you looked just like
your Mommy. I think about your full head of black hair and that cute little
nose. My heart hurts so badly for you and I just wish you were here. I did have
the pleasure of you growing inside of me for seven months and those are moments
that I will cherish forever. The memories of your kicks and heartbeat will
forever be a great memory for me. You will always be my first born and I will
make sure that your future brothers and sisters know exactly who you are. Your
Daddy and I are stronger than ever and I have you to thank for that. You have
forever changed us both and brought us closer to God.
I talk about you often because I want everyone to know that you’re real. Talking about stillborn isn’t a topic that most people want to bring up, but that isn’t the case for your Mommy. I want everyone to know about you and share our story because it happens. Just look at this letter Mommy got from a friend shortly after you were born. You have already saved a life my Angel.
“Hey
beautiful I don't have your number in my new phone or I definitely would have
called you for this. I just want to express my gratitude for you sharing what
happened with sweet AJ. On the xxth of June I start having contractions but
nothing major. After a while I noticed the baby hadn't moved all day. I would
not have thought anything of it but I remembered AJs story so I went to L&D
just to be on the safe side. Within forty minutes I had my baby. I had to have
an emergency c section because there wasn't any fluid because my placenta was
infected. The dr said my baby would not have made it through the night if I
didn't come in. I will forever be grateful for you sharing your story and
making me more aware. Unbeknownst to you, you saved my child's life and I will
forever and a day love you for that. I know God has great things in store for
you and D and I am amazed at your strength. I pray for you two everyday just
wanted to share the blessing you gave me."
I plan on writing to you often because this is helping me in the grieving process. Mommy and Daddy love you so much and know that you're our guardian Angel.
Leave some love:)
