The Phoenix is a mythological bird that recycles its own life. It reemerges from its own ashes--reborn, renewed, and very much alive. Demetrius and I knew that if we were to ever be blessed with another girl that this special name would be hers. The meaning of Phoenix deals with rebirth, growth, life and longevity. Even though Phoenix will never replace our Adelyn Jade, a part of her will live on through her baby sister. With our hearts filled to the fullest capacity, we're happy to announce the arrival of our third baby, born on our angels birthday, Phoenix Jade Hilmes.
After what was one of the best days of my life I feel like sharing more of our story as it may help at least one of you. The love and support from each of you is overwhelming and it's truly amazing. All of you have been here on this journey with us and I could not be more grateful for the kind words and the encouragement needed to continue down the path to parenthood.
After what was one of the best days of my life I feel like sharing more of our story as it may help at least one of you. The love and support from each of you is overwhelming and it's truly amazing. All of you have been here on this journey with us and I could not be more grateful for the kind words and the encouragement needed to continue down the path to parenthood.
Demetrius and I have been pregnant 5 times in the last 4 years. Unfortunately 3 Of those babies never made it home. I have shared previously about two losses (stillborn and miscarriage) but what most of you do not know is that I had another miscarriage in September 2014. I found out I was pregnant again the day Koi turned 6 months, which was August 2014. I went in for our first ultrasound when I was 8 weeks and baby had a nice strong heartbeat. Two days later the baby's heart stopped beating and Demetrius and I gained another angel. I do not know what made this loss different but I just did not wanna talk about it. I felt like I needed to grieve this baby alone. I felt like people would feel sorry for me and I did not want that. I have had losses before and the kind words from all of my family and friends helped but I thought maybe people did not want to hear about our struggles anymore. Two weeks after the miscarriage is when I ended up conceiving our second Rainbow baby who is now laying on my chest as I type.
I am wanting to share more of our story because what I witnessed yesterday was truly an act of God. Of course I did not understand why we had to go through another loss and relive all of the pain that comes along with losing a child in that moment, but now I get it. God had a bigger plan for us. He wanted Phoenix Jade to be a part of our family. He wanted us to be blessed with another girl. He wanted her to be born on her sister's birthday so that sad day for us would become a happier one. He wanted all of that and without going through what we did, none of this would have happened. I do not know what I did to deserve so many blessings but I can tell you one thing, I will never take this life for granted.
The main reason for this entry is to just say thank you. I reread all of your kind words and sweet comments over and over because that is what makes sharing our story worth it. I appreciate everything and will continue to share our journey if you let me. The day of my baby shower I saw a double rainbow and knew that everything was going to be ok with this blessing and God proved that to be true.
If you want to see me boo hooing, please watch me finding out the gender of Phoenix. It was truly a moment that I will never forget.
click here ------>Double Rainbow Gender Reveal
click here ------>Double Rainbow Gender Reveal
