Day 3: Your Rock

Day 3: Who has been your "rock" through this whole experience?

 
God has definitely been my hope through all of this darkness, that's for sure. I have to be honest though, at first I was mad at God. I questioned his plan and wondered why me? I couldn't understand why this had to happen to us? "How could you?" "We don't deserve this!" Those were the thoughts that ran through my mind for weeks following her death. Those feelings quickly left as I realized that this was given to us because we're strong enough to handle it. I no longer question God and his doings because I know he has a plan for us. Through this entire experience, I have become more connected with God and I am very thankful for that.

 

With that being said, God has truly blessed me with an amazing man who has definitely been my rock. I honestly don't think that I could have ever made it through this without my husband Demetrius. He loves Adelyn just as much as I do and is the only other person in this world to know what it felt like to lose Adelyn as their daughter. Loving Demetrius has always been easy and this obstacle has made it even easier. I feel as if we are marked official and he will forever be my husband. He is the father of my first born and nobody can ever take that away from me. Demetrius, thank you. Thank you for always taking care of me and supporting all of my decisions, even when they may not be the right ones. Becoming your wife was the wisest decision I could have ever made. You're rare, amazing, kind, and humble. I love you today, tomorrow, and always. Thank you for giving me the blessing to be a mother to our precious Adelyn, I will forever love you for that. Thank  you!

Every morning I wake up and see,
The most handsome man lying next to me.
He's the one I cherish and love,
A blessing sent from Heaven above.
I will love him as a faithful wife should,
And do everything for him I could.
I would let him know everyday,
That I love him more than words can say.
For the one child we have together,
And the love for God in each other.
It will keep our love for each other strong,
And the Lord will guide us away from all wrong.

(Jessica Newsome)